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Monday, January 11th, 2010
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1:52 am - Home Page
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You walk through the portico and down a walkway leading up to the temple. It is surrounded by an open and beautiful grassland meadow dotted with flowers and trees. Their scent permeates the air, joined with the deep woods surrounding. The area feels vibrant to the senses and even in the shade, you feel as though the warmth of sunlit rays grace your body and spirit. You feel more relaxed, content and at peace, knowing this space is designed and provided for you. Something from within calls to you and you are ready to answer it. You see a few others walking about slowly, enjoying the haven, meditating and walking into the temple. They, like you, are here for their own reasons and seek or rest within.
You grow more aware of your entire body; now you feel through it and decide on each step you take, in which direction you want to take it. You have entered a sacred space, your own. You may journey further within entering the temple, where you may find several halls and places of interaction. In The Hall of Wisdom you may find a growing collection of writings to inspire, guide and assist you while you are on your own journey. These will be aimed at anything related to physical, spiritual or personal growth, development and awakening. At its most basic, its aim is anything improving the quality and experience of life and beyond.
In The Hall of Scribes you will find stories and poetry inspired and birthed from the paths, journeys and experiences of others. These are here to inspire and invoke creative thought, to heal and touch you emotionally. They act as way-points and signposts of those who've been here before you. From here you can leave your own spiritual graffiti, or move on. Further along you find a place of gathering and interaction with a variety of others at The Forums. Here you are free to ask questions, share your opinions, insights, knowledge and wisdom, so long as you abide by the rules of the temple. There are sections in the forums dedicated to casual gossip and others to more specific and substantial subjects. You are free to explore and wander the temple as you please!
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1:52 am - Temple Intro
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Welcome to a temple for all who seek answers, who wish to awaken, for those who are learning and take that direction with meaning. For those who take interest in the matters of the world and the universe as well as humanity. For those who rejoice at offering a helpful hand and a word of guidance, and exist for more than ownership and possessions. For those who feel in their heart a yearning, a pull to become a part of more. Is this place the more you've been seeking? No, it isn't. It is a place to help you discover yourself, to help awaken yourself and bring your personal truth, joy to the world. This is a place for those who no longer want to suffer, no longer want to see suffering.
For those who feel, know that there is something much greater and are ready to find it and join others that feel the same pull to that wonder. This is a place where you help each other get there, where your heart opens up, you begin to experience your own love and in that, provide inspiration for others who are on their way. Where your mind expands and your perceptions awaken as though a thick blanket had been pulled from overtop them, and you truly feel for the first time. That you are much more than you ever could of imagined to be true. We are here for the day the world is ready for you, and for the day you are aware and ready for the world.
As when you enter any place, you may for a brief second ask yourself "What am I doing here?" That is for you to answer. What are you looking for? What do you hope for? What do you wish to end up with, or how do you wish to end up? Do you have a final destination to begin with, or are you just taking whatever direction suits you? You create your own journies and so all experiences here will vary as they do everywhere else. As with any temple there are certain rules and they are as follows.
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Do not infringe on the paths of others, they are not here for your path and you are not here for theirs.
Spiritual paths, lessons and journeys are very personal to each individual and will come at its own pace, in its own way, in one form or many, all at once or over the span of many years. Do not infringe does not mean do not share. Sharing is very welcome, but as you share, or others share, do not approach their thoughts and experiences with judgment or vindication. If you have nothing good to say, then simply remain silent and wait your turn to share your own personal thoughts. Space is a necessity for growth and compassion, and this rule exists to ensure that space. Give that space and freedom, and you will have it in return upon your every visit.
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Do not be rude, hostile, condescending or insulting.
Against common belief, it is possible to question or challenge an idea and be polite at the same time. It is not courageous or intelligent to insult, belittle or devalue someone's opinions, thoughts, beliefs, personality or life. If you wish to, offer your own opinion in a gentle and considerate way that does not disregard others. If the other shows no interest in debating their point or experience then do not push the issue, or instigate a fight.
Working things out privately, or even simply allowing that space to exist can work wonders. Be mindful of what you say. If you watch the words you type and find that you can't broach your thoughts or a subject without a semblance of negativity, then remain silent or simply take a break for a while. At this point it is more about you and there is no shame in leaving and taking a break, this will be seen as respectful and considerate. This rule exists to respect the sacred space of this virtual temple and maintain the peaceful, abundant and nurturing environment.
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Teach the willing. Don't try to force a lesson on anyone.
If someone is interested in skills, experience or information you have, then by all means share with them, teach them. But if they are not interested or are not ready for the lessons you can help with, don't try to push it onto them. This is not a place to crusade your beliefs, or feign superiority over others. In this temple, every individual of varying levels of experience, abilities, development will be treated equally so long as they respect others and abide by the rules.
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Mind your gifts, even if you believe you do not have any.
For some this is an everyday reality, for others it may take a leap of faith to take seriously. When meeting others in a chat room or a forum, do not use other people as experiments for your abilities to manipulate energy or explore them without their permission. This is a place where all can be open and this is only possible when our boundaries are respected and space is provided.
This includes the use of "psychic abilities," or otherwise. This rule will be enforced mainly through way of trust and honor, as it may be difficult or impossible to always tell who is doing what. Do not test your abilities or use your abilities on someone without their consent. Attempt to explain the basis or general idea of what you would like to try and only proceed if that person or everyone involved has agreed to it.
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| Sunday, January 10th, 2010
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10:40 pm - In Sight
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Our technology has outgrown our humanity. It used to be phrased in the future-tense, when people held onto the hope that somehow our humanity would catch up one day. Given the direction we were headed, we should have known better, and the pace at which our technology was rapidly growing, that our humanity would never catch it. Perhaps it was that childhood story about the tortoise and the hare, that slow but steady can win the race. Maybe not, who knows.
We were all born into a world that was becoming increasingly impulsive, “freedom and the pursuit of happiness,” so they said, but it was more like “narcissism and the pursuit of sensory gratification.” We were becoming ridiculously obsessed with ourselves and the discovery of anything that could enhance our excessive lifestyles. There are so many websites and places by which we constantly define and inflate ourselves, take pictures of ourselves, write about ourselves, look for partners with whom we can debate our own futures upon.
We love things that smell beautiful, look beautiful, taste beautiful, feel beautiful and sound beautiful, at least to each one of us personally. But we spent our entire lives seeking one sense after another. It was only a matter of time until those with a somewhat different craving arrived to take advantage of the abundance. Those with a craving for excessive power. They realized how many people willingly enslave themselves to the senses, that if they could control both pleasure and pain, they could control the world.
Technology continued to develop at a rapid pace, to a point that ways were found to manipulate and stimulate every sense. Most were already so deep and nullified in a lifestyle surrounding sensory gratification that the transition into a new kind of slavery wasn't a difficult one. Obey and experience pleasure, disobey and experience pain and suffering. A simple psychology. An effective one.
The only ones remaining are most strongly founded in those rare few on Earth who spent their lives seeking enlightenment, through meditation, through deprivation of the senses. These are the ones that meditate for days on end, deprave themselves of food, of sunlight, of “worldly” things in pursuit of the ultimate freedom and happiness, beyond through what can be achieved via ordinary life. Through their pursuits they achieved control over their thoughts, their minds, their impulses and their senses. Their life was now led by something entirely different, and the experience of sensory life was simply an observation, or at times, the participation of a willing partner, themselves. They are far from slaves of the senses.
Was their pursuit imaginary and fruitless? Real and practical? When it comes down to it, the origin of their practices doesn't really matter. Only their places in the world today and what they can do for us. They are now the only ones left who can teach other human beings a different path, another option and provide some simple form of freedom. One choice, or the other? The world was controlled and ruled by corporations and what ridiculous and imaginary facades of what politics were supposed to be and represent that were left.
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| Friday, August 1st, 2008
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6:39 am - Early Morning Thoughts (originally posted for Windows Live)
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As usual the only reason I'm up so early is because I haven't slept yet. I figured I'd turn on the computer and write a few more thoughts before I cleaned up a bit and went to lay down. Otherwise, my thoughts become nothing very substantial but at least in writing they are given some remotely memorable form to reflect on in the future. It's nice to have a place to write my thoughts freely, even if of a personal nature at times. The only person, at least for the time being, that I know will read this is Jaime and I'm pretty comfortable sharing my thoughts with her openly. I suppose this could always offer a little insight as well. Just like the last time I came home from Jaime's, I have a greater and more natural urge to clean up the house and make it look nice. I think that might be because of the great contrast of the very clean house she lives in with the very messy and often dirty house I live in. Either way making the place look nice and keeping it clean is a good thing to do and a good habit to be in. I figure through the next month I'll work to save up to buy myself a hopefully nice used car. There's a lot more I could do with one. Go on joy rides, go grocery shopping when we need it without having to rely on home health aides or taxi cabs, go relax at Dawe's Arboretum, which is like a nature park. Could go to the mall with friends or take a long drive down to Arkansas rather than a flight. Also provides more job opportunity if I need it. I'm hoping to get one that is $1,000 or under, but I might be able to scrounge up a bit more than that. Well, I know I could, it'd just take longer. In any case, it's nice to have something you know you can work towards, contribute to and look forward to. A car seems like a good choice at the moment cause it can contribute to all areas of my life. From the most basic needs, to the more convenient ease of travel. It contributes to financial life, my relationship with Jaime and my friends and all that hoodoo voodoo. I still have some things to figure out for sure as far as taxes go. I still plan on cleaning up the house and rearranging the room to make it more compact and spacious at the same time. I suppose I'll have to do that tomorrow, now it would be best to get some sleep. As I mentioned before, I'd been questioning myself quietly and subtly for about the past month whether or not I should enter a new journey. This time I want to involve practice and focus. The last time I entered a spiritual journey it involved a lot of learning and a few wild experiences, new experiences, but very little actual practice and focus. Not so much down to Earth, but high in the clouds floating above my own existence. To leave Earth doesn't necessarily mean that you transcend the Earth. "Um, hey buddy, you're still here." A common theme in a lot of the people I've met, books and pages I've read, whether true or not, is that physical life is the lowest form. It is the most dense and full of at least some of the most suffering. It seems silly to me at the moment. It's like a bunch of people get into a pool and sit there cynically noting the most negative aspects of experiencing the water, all the while afraid to let go and create the experience they want. To let go, be free and have fun. To be completely themself. The water isn't stopping them, they are. I figure what does it honestly matter if physical life, reality, bodies or senses is the lowest form in some way or in all ways. You know what I think we should do? Master it. Stop focusing so deeply upon strictly spiritual concepts and focus even more on the physical. Create spirituality in the physical, master the lessons, actions, words and expressions of the physical. Make spirit and body one, it will reflect on all life around you and I bet you'll come to experience more spirituality in the life of physical than you ever thought you could. Heck, if physical is the lowest, then everything else will be a piece of cake, right? Master this and you've got it made buddy. So go for it! I really like what is shown in the Peaceful Warrior. At one point, Socrates explains that meditation, sitting still for long periods to focus attention, clear the mind, is just the beginning. That after much practice you bring your practice to life itself, and life becomes your meditation. Every time you do something, you enter into it as if in a meditative state of alertness, attention and focus, which brings you to a kind of readiness and ease of action. I kind of understand how a person can enter into such a deep meditation that they literally don't notice you there. Or perhaps they do notice, but either way they are skilled enough in the art of focusing that, that is where 100% of their attention will be found. Not anywhere else. This practice is a practice because it readies you to enter into the same state of 100% attention for every moment of life. You carry your skills with you, as any practitioner does. Anyhow, that's enough for now. Live, Love, Laugh 
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| Thursday, July 17th, 2008
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8:02 pm - 2nd trip
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Not that anyone really reads this, but hey, I'm going on my 2nd trip to go see my girlfriend Jaime in Arkansas. I'll be staying for 12 days. :)
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| Sunday, July 6th, 2008
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6:56 pm
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We are shown that:
Our friends can become our enemies,
Our enemies can become our friends
Sometimes we go too far,
Sometimes we don't go far enough
That a loser can be a winner,
A winner can be a loser
Death can come at any time,
Just as life can spring anew
Time can pass just as slowly,
As it can pass quickly
Fear can lead us to do,
what we thought we never could
Love can lead us to do,
what we thought we never could
Half the day the sun is out,
Half the day it's gone
It can be dark and stormy
It can be warm and sunny
Too much of either can destroy life
Too little of either can destroy life
The days pass without favor
Two extremes can balance each other out
Two extremes can destroy each other
Sometimes we have to fall,
To understand why we fell
Balance can bring us fulfillment
Balance can mean being unbalanced
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| Saturday, March 1st, 2008
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3:53 am - Dunno, the subject line sucks
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I'm not sure why these questions in particular are haunting my mind lately, but I have several. First though, I'd rather talk about something else. Yea, that's right, before I made the first subject clear. Lol, anyway. For anyone that doesn't know, I've had a girlfriend for several months now, about 6. Her name is Jaime, she's 30 and has a son named Devon. She's the first person I've been with so much older than me, but age has never played a role in our relationship so far. I met her in the chat room for indigo adults and the one I'm now helping to host. She's sensitive at times, as I can be, and is a real sweetheart. At the same time she's pretty honest about what she thinks about something. She's a very kind, understanding, forgiving person, and has been through a lot. It's her first serious relationship and in many ways I consider it mine as well.
Anyway, in just a few more days I'm taking a flight to go down and visit her, to see her for the first time and stay for a week. I'm really nervous sometimes but I think I'm really going to enjoy it once I get there. I'll be glad when I finally get there and relax, so I can stop worrying about it. She's mentioned several times that she'd understand if I wanted to change my mind, but I knew how I might react when I made the decision to plan the flight down there and I'm not going to change my mind about that. I hope that we get much closer and keep a relationship that will last far into the future. Your idea of the future changes a lot when you get into a relationship. Right now I don't have a clear vision of it, but whatever I find myself doing, I hope she'll be right next to me, or whatever she finds herself doing that I'll be right next to her with that as well.
The trip will be the first time I've ever done anything like it, but I'm looking forward to it, and it's so soon. I've been slowly returning to a better state of being the past some days.
I used to have a clear sense of God, I knew what it was and I could feel it. Whatever it was, is probably still there, but just like a person, you come to know them differently over the course of your life and may change your mind about something several times during your life. Why would there be a God? A unifying Source? I suppose it's a somewhat logical idea. All things are interconnected and everything that is, had to begin or come from something, has to end somewhere. I used to acknowledge it as something I knew, knew by feel and sense. Now the part of me that theorizes has decided it needs more answers and more clarity. Though, I guess you don't always need answers to acknowledge something.
So, what is God? I would say that the true thing that word points towards is indescribable and incomprehensible. To me.
What am I experiencing? As far as I am aware, I am experiencing very little, from a very limited perspective, but a perspective that can grow. I am experiencing what filters through my mind, my brain, which may be governed by yet another thing.
What is reality? The very simple answer is, what seems real. What seems true to experience. It is what we live in and what we create. But for me, it has no clear definition. I could be living in a dream.
What is free will? One, it's free, meaning not bound by restriction. Will, that's a little harder to clarify. It makes me think, motivation and direction. It's hard to say whether or not we have total free will. We make choices all the time, but how many causes, effects and influences and past experiences guide all of those choices. In all that clutter, where is it that "we" are actually making those decisions? Where do complex systems turn into sentience? Consciousness?
I'm too tired to continue this now. Maybe later.
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3:46 am - Few Words
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Some of my words worth keeping and reflecting back on.
mumzy: what does acceptance mean to you?
Rysuko: Well I think acceptance is the opposite of ignorance, and acceptance is part of the path to an enlightened state of being. There are some people who very strongly cling to one particular idea, or feeling, or experience and sort of shut out the rest of life. Sometimes that person is just focused on what they enjoy, but sometimes people take it too far and ignore what they see right infront of their face, if it's not a part of what they hold to
Rysuko: A lot of the arguements and quarrels you see are much like someone trying to expel something from themself
Rysuko: But for someone who is in acceptance, things, even unpleasant ones pass them by, they don't resist
Rysuko: I think it's a little similar to not taking things so seriously. It's hard for me sometimes, especially at acts of extreme violence or atrocities, it's tough. But when someone is like "Oh! I'm so offended!" or follow that kind of a reaction, that's a pattern of resistance. I'm sure there is a way to experience peace in every situation, but I've yet to find my way there. I suppose that you can still accept something for what it is, like misery and pain, without having to bring that misery and pain within you. But just to approach it instead with a demeanor of love and healing, and rather than allowing pain to be introduced to you, allow healing to be introduced to pain
Rysuko: Also in tough situations.. I guess that the hardest emotions will never fully go away, but I imagine it's much easier to allow pain, hurt, jealous, anger at anything or anyone, flow through you and let it pass, rather than getting so caught up in it. Like standing on a bridge and watching something float downstream, first towards you, then under and through you, then onwards down the stream until it's gone. Also in some situations where you're faced up against something, it can be a good idea to just sit down and let it go, let yourself go, let someone call you wrong and allow them their space and allow yourself yours
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| Sunday, February 24th, 2008
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6:47 pm - Photography
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To me photography is capturing moments in time. To express yourself through the portrayal of any moment or image you capture. It allows anyone who gazes upon it to reflect on that moment in time in any way they desire. It can evoke certain feelings, thoughts, ideas or just present the pleasure of simple beauty. It can give you new perspective on things, show you everyday sights in ways you otherwise wouldn't have seen them. They are like memories. To the eye, it captures every visual element of a given subject. To the mind, it can capture much more, to the imagination. The action, the smells, sounds and with a sensitive person with vivid perception, even physical touch.
When taking pictures, your focus should be mostly on what it is you want to capture. With only this much in mind you have a great start. All of the other details come secondary. When you already see so many different things in the world around you, it's very easy to begin capturing those things. When the world around you means nothing to you, or meaning must be brought to you, you'll find it more difficult. In this way, I find photography and spirituality or philosophy are connected. Previous pictures can give you the opportunity to see through your own eyes of the past. To express yourself with photography means to take something from within yourself and create the image of that thing externally. If you know yourself well, this comes easy. If you don't, you'll find it more difficult. In this way, too, I find spirituality and photography are connected.
This is what I find in photography.
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| Wednesday, January 23rd, 2008
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2:19 pm
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I don't know why I always feel so nervous about writing here. Afraid of being judged I guess, because I'm not that confident in what I have to say, I just need somewhere to write it. Somewhere to use as an outlet for the clutter in my mind and emotions. And now I really don't have anything to say. After all, what is there to say? I'm not sure anymore. It all seems the same. To simply just withdraw within and allow what comes out to flow forth, let it happen. That seems to be my only goal. An empty mind and inner peace, why try so hard to figure everything out. You can learn a lot but can you learn yourself, if so, what happens when you lose yourself. Find another 'self'? And when you lose that one?
There are no answers. There is no such thing as the truth. But then what is there? There is nothing. But there is everything. There is duality and there is understanding, there are choices and freedom, but reactions and constraint, conscious and unconscious, aware and unaware, great and minuscule, apparent and hidden, in and out, high and low, smart or stupid, wise or foolish, intuitive and logical, obscure and clear, vague and precise, near and far, success and failure, easy and difficult, soft or hard, fast or slow, denial and acceptance, feminine and masculine, gain and loss, love and fear.. Whichever, take your picking, most do. I'm somewhere on the scale, but it doesn't really matter.
Knowing is a separate thing from being and more than anything I just want to be. I could type all the words in the world and it wouldn't make a difference. The best I could ever hope to do is help someone to find them self. For that ends, any words could suffice. For however many people I help to guide, how many times do I find my self. For however many people I could teach about a subject, how much could I learn. For however many choices I could make, what results would I be happiest with. But my aim is not a happiness that is based on circumstance but on nothing but pure inner joy itself. Where else would joy be?
It's funny how we can go entire lives chasing after thoughts or mentally-created objects and dealing with them, all the while all it is, is what we've decided to make out of circumstance, while experience is completely up to us. That's why we experience things differently.
It's silly to dismiss something based on an idea you have about that thing. I figure it's best to experience something for myself, at least sometimes, to discover the truth about that thing, if it's the truth I'm after.
I've been thinking along the lines of science is the means of observing and describing what we know as the physical world of solid matter and how it operates, and spirituality is the means of experiencing the physical world. Sort of like that saying "Be in the world, not of it," and "We are spiritual beings having a physical experience." There are many theories in the general new age category of belief that are commonly accepted and supported, and there are many theories commonly accepted and supported in the scientific community. It seems to me that these two methodologies are just two means of understanding and experiencing the same world.
What annoys me is when frauds poke their heads out in modern understanding in any form and create videos, movies, articles not really seeking to inform people, but just to support a belief, or a single idea. To go as far as to falsify or deviate from what seems to really be true and begin to sit upon a single platform dedicated to one idea and see how many they can convince to come stand up there with them. I think everyone should be able to make their own decisions about what they believe and feel, without having to worry about being persuaded or misled, practically forced into believing what someone else wants them to believe.
So what I'm wondering is.. if science generally is the observation and understanding of the natural laws of physical reality, is that a limitation? Is there a point somewhere along the line where science can no longer explain something. Is there a place where science ends and the soul begins? Can science only ever find evidence to point to the existence of consciousness and the soul, or can it be quantified and measured. Or do we begin to exist on a separate layer, or dimension entirely that no longer consists of physical, measurable matter. Will our understanding of ourselves and the universe evolve? If so, how soon? To what leaps and bounds? What will we discover? Will we stop killing ourselves the further we advance? Will our spiritual evolution ever catch up with our technological evolution? Will we realize that the good of the one is the good of the many? Will we switch our major and most common driving motives from profit to the betterment of humankind? How is it that the faster and more effectively we kill ourselves and destroy the planet, the more we profit and succeed anyway? Do we live in an insane world? Will the majority of the human race remain idiots?
Find out,
... in 2012.
Or at any other date anything decides to happen or anyone decides to do anything.
Anyway, I guess if anyone reads this, don't mind me and my ranting.
current mood:  hungry
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| Saturday, December 22nd, 2007
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1:57 am
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Every moment you have the opportunity to step outside of everything you've known of the world, of yourself and say something different, do something different, create something different, something new, your best idea of how things can be. Your best idea of who you are. You're not your past, or your future. I find those those ideas pretty exciting, because in them you realize you have complete and total control over your life. No one else can determine what you create in this moment, or even limit your creation. No one can tell you how to experience life, you can experience it any way you wish. No matter who you are, you can realize this and experience this. Experience life however you wish. The details can be fascinating but they aren't important, what is important is you are here. You can spend all the time you want contemplating life in the afterlife, in whichever way you imagine it to be. We're here to experience those ideas we've always had in new ways and the ways we desire.
Now I'm going to sleep.
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| Monday, December 17th, 2007
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12:03 am - Call to Changes - Conversations with God book 3
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I tell you this: The time has come for you to look at things in a new way. This is the moment of your rebirth as an individual and as a society. You must re-create your world now, before you destroy it with your insanities.
Now listen to Me.
We are All One.
There is only One of Us.
You are not separate from Me, and you are not separate from each other.
Everything We are doing, We are doing in concert with each other. Our reality is a co-created reality. If you terminate a pregnancy, We terminate a pregnancy. Your will is My will. No individual aspect of Divinity has power over any other individual aspect of Divinity. It is not possible for one soul to affect another against its will. There are no victims and there are no villains.
You cannot understand this from your limited perspective; but I am telling you it is so.
There is only one reason to be, do, or have anything--As a direct statement of Who You Are. If Who You Are as an individual and as a society, is who you choose and desire to be, there is no reason to change anything. If, on the other hand, you believe there is a grander experience to be had--an even greater expression of Divinity than the one currently manifesting, then move into that truth.
Since all of Us are co-creating, it may serve Us to do what we can to show others the way that some parts of Us wish to go. You can be a way-show-er, demonstrating the life that you'd like to create, and inviting others to follow your example. You might even say "I am the life and the way. Follow me." But be careful. Some people have been crucified for making such statements.
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| Thursday, December 13th, 2007
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10:22 pm - "A warrior, a healer, and Tao" - Tao of Leadership
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The leader can act as a warrior, or as a healer. As a warrior, the leader acts with power and decision. That is the yang, or masculine aspect of leadership. Most of the time, however, the leader acts as a healer and is in an open, receptive, and nourishing state. That is the feminine or Yin aspect of leadership. This mixture of doing and being, of warrior and healer, is both productive and potent. There is a third aspect of leadership: Tao. Periodically the leader withdraws from the group and returns to silence, returns to God. Being, doing, being... then, Tao. I withdraw in order to empty myself of what has happened, to replenish my spirit.
A brilliant warrior does not make every possible brilliant intervention. A knowing healer takes time to nourish self as well as others. Such simplicity and economy is a valuable lesson. It deeply affects the group. The leader who knows when to listen, when to act, and when to withdraw can work effectively with nearly anyone, even with other professionals, group leaders, or therapists, perhaps the most difficult and sophisticated group members. Because the leader is clear, the work is delicate and does not violate anyones sensabilities.
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| Thursday, December 6th, 2007
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9:34 pm - The Great Learning - Family Traditions on the Art of War
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It is said that The Great Learning is the gate of elementary learning. Whenever you go to a house, first you go in through the gate. Therefore the gate is a sign that you have reached the house. Going through this gate, you enter the house and meet the host
Learning is the gate to attainment of the Way. Therefore learning is the gate, not the house. When you see a gate, do not think it is the house. You have to go through the gate to get to the house, which is inside, behind it.
Since learning is a gate, when you read books do not think this is the Way. This misconception has made many people remain ignorant of the Way no matter how much they study or how many words they know. Even if you can read as fluently as a commentary of an ancient, if you are unaware of the principles, you cannot make the Way your own.
Nevertheless, even though this is so, it is also hard to reach the Way without learning. It is also hard to say that someone understands the Way simply by virtue of being learned and articulate. There are some people who naturally conform to the Way without learning how.
The Great Learning speaks of consummating knowledge and perfecting things. Consummating knowledge means knowing the principles of everything thoroughly, then you know everything and can do everything. When there is nothing more you know, there is nothing you can do either. When you do not know the principle, nothing at all comes to fruition.
In all things, uncertainty exists because of not knowing. Things stick in your mind because of being in doubt. When the principle is clarified, nothing sticks in your mind. This is called consummating knowledge and perfecting things. Since there is no longer anything sticking in your mind, all your tasks become easy to do.
For this reason, the practice of all the arts is for the purpose of clearing away what is on your mind. In the beginning, you do not know anything, so paradoxically you do not have any questions on your mind. Then, when you get into studies, there is something on your mind and you are obstructed by that. This makes everything difficult to do.
When what you have studied leaves your mind entirely, and practice also dissapears, then, when you perform whatever art you are engaged in, you accomplish the techniques easily without being inhibited by concern over what you have learned. This is spontaneously conforming to learning without being consciously aware of doing so. The science of the art of war can be understood through this.
To learn all of the sword strokes, the physical postures, and the focus of the eyes, to thoroughly learn all there is to learn and practice is, is the spirit of consummating knowledge. Then, when you have succeeded in learning, when everything you have learned dissapears from your conscious mind and you become innocent, this is the spirit of perfecting things.
When you have built up achievement in cultivation of learning and practice, even as your hands, feet, and body act, this does not hang on your mind. You are detached from your learning yet do not deviate from your learning. Whatever you do, your action is free.
At this time, you do not even know where your own mind is; neither the celestial devil nor outsiders can spy into your heart. The learning is for the purpose of reaching this state. Once you have learned this successfully, learning dissapears.
This is the ultimate sense and the progressive transcendentalism of all the Zen arts. Forgetting learning, relinquishing mind, harmonizing without any self-conscious knowledge thereof, is the ultimate consummation of the Way.
This stage is a matter of entering from learning into no learning.
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| Sunday, October 7th, 2007
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6:44 pm - The Poop Prophecy
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LOL Zen and I had a really interesting conversation here. There was more, but I think these were the highlights.
tehzenshin: Hm
tehzenshin: There was something I wanted to do...
tehzenshin: Not involving pooping, though
tehzenshin: LOL
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: LOL
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: WAIT
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: Wait
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: Are you sure?
tehzenshin: If you can believe it, there was something besides pooping I had in mind
tehzenshin: I'm fairly sure
tehzenshin: Maybe I was thinking "Whoa, I better poop later"
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: Maybe it was biogenetically enhanced poop, or even Golden platinum poop, or pooping in heaven. Maybe asking God why people poop, or even selling your poop to Satan. Maybe you dreamt of building a kingdom of people that pooped, and thus, were very happy. Maybe as Moses pooped he pooped out the Ten Commandments. 1. I am your poop, the only poop 2. There shall be no other poop before me. 3. Thou shalt not make wrongful use of poop, or call out poops name in vain "shit!" 4. Remember the moment of thine Poopeth and keep it Holy 5. Honor thy Turd and thy Dump 6. Thou shalt not restrain the life of pooping willfully 7. Thou shalt not steal the poop of thy neighbor 8. Thou shalt not bear false poop 9. Thou shalt not covet thy neighbors moment of pooping 10. Thou shalt not covet thy neighbors place
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: of pooping
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: LMAO
tehzenshin: LMAO
tehzenshin: It's kinda sad that you thought that up and typed it all in
tehzenshin: Not gonna lie
tehzenshin: LOL
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: Maybe you had thought, "I had a dream, and it was that all poop shall remain equal. Poop of all breeds, colors, shapes and nationalities!"
tehzenshin: LMAO
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: Maybe you want to share this dream with the world, in a great speech infront of many people?
tehzenshin: "MY FELLOW POOPING AMERICANS"
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: LOL, hey it all came to me. I had to look at wikipedia to remember the commandments in order though
tehzenshin: LOL
tehzenshin: I'm gonna save all that, never know when it could come in handy
tehzenshin: Like, I'll be feeling down and I'll think
tehzenshin: "Whoa, I have the Poop Commandments"
tehzenshin: "PRAISE POOP"
tehzenshin: I must be high or something and not realize it
tehzenshin: High...
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: Sorry, I tend to have that effect on people
tehzenshin: On the power of Him!
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: LOL
tehzenshin: PRAISE THE LORD POOP ALL MIGHTY
tehzenshin: But there's a slight problem here that I have forseen
tehzenshin: What happens when a person is angry and they say "Poop dammit!" and the people around them take it as an order, and out of fear of the one true lord Poop allmighty, they obey?!
tehzenshin: THERE WILL BE LITTLE LORDS ALL OVER THE PLACE
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: LOL, one day when you have kids, you will remember this line. You will remember it, repeat it, and you shall be joyous, yet sad.
tehzenshin: LMAO
tehzenshin: The cross will be a gigantic toilet handle
tehzenshin: And the one true Lord, having sent his only son, the Holiest of the Holy, the one true Enchilada, to redeem the earth of its constipation
tehzenshin: Will flood the world
tehzenshin: You guessed it
tehzenshin: With a wave of diarrhea
tehzenshin: But the one son, the Holiest of the Holy, the one true Enchilada, will make his return
tehzenshin: And even the nonbelievers
tehzenshin: Will poop once again
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: There is also a sect called the Protectorate of Pooping, that believes in the one fallen poop, believing the fallen poop will bring salvation to all mankind. For once poop was whole, but it was curious, so high up, what was down below, so he took a peek and came to think, that he was the Ruler of It All, questioned by no one. So his power being challenged, the mighty Lord Anus cut him off, and threw him down from the Bowels of Heaven into the cold uncaring waters of suffering and despair. Some think it is the fallen one, Muffin, as they call him, holds the true power to give and take. They say Muffin, the fallen archangel, was once beautiful, but now appears hideous, brown, ridden with nuts, a compacted distorted monster, of what he used to be.
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: It is also said they believe that many Dingleberries fell after him, and so, the demonic droplets assist him in his nightmarish but powerfuk outtake on the Process of Pooping
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: powerful*
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: LOL
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: LMFAO
tehzenshin: oh my gfod
tehzenshin: I need to take a break
tehzenshin: That's it
tehzenshin: I don't need to live any longer
tehzenshin: It would be pointless
tehzenshin: Because this
tehzenshin: This is the meaning of life
tehzenshin: The things we've just said
tehzenshin: I'm close to being speechless
tehzenshin: Any person with normal, functioning moral values would feel very strange right now
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: I shall close the photos now, ceasing to expose myself to such filthy words of the dark lords of Muffanism
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: Constipation is the poop??
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: BLASPHEMY!!!
tehzenshin: LOL
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: Well hey, I have perfectly normal functioning moral values, one of them is humour, and I am excersizing that one right now.
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: I also happen to know that God has a great sense of humour. He invented it.
rysuko_mitsukai_musha: LOL
current mood:  silly
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| Monday, September 17th, 2007
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8:56 am - Silence
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duskryder: under lady liberty's wrap?
Rysuko: Naughty
Rysuko: What were you doing under there?
duskryder: hey it popped up
duskryder: lol
Rysuko: LOL
Rysuko: That's what they all say
Shylibrachick: ::blush
Rysuko: LOL you fell right into that one
Rysuko: LOL still laughing
Rysuko: Whew
Rysuko: Sometimes I wonder
Rysuko: the massive scale our reality operates on outside of ourselves
Rysuko: the people living near us, the cities we live with
Rysuko: even if you don't live near one it's still part of the moment you are in
Rysuko: it is beyond comprehension
Rysuko: The workings of countries and civilizations
Rysuko: Not only of this moment, but through all history
Rysuko: and that is of only one race, our race
Rysuko: which the history of we still have way more to learn about
Rysuko: I'm not so sure our future is any more certain than our past as a race and a world is
Rysuko: We all know what we want
Rysuko: Some hate, some love, some want a better world, some would rather conquer or destroy it
Rysuko: but none of those things makes our future a certainty
Rysuko: The possibilities beyond what is and has been and what will be are endless
Rysuko: it is inevitable that we will ascend and awaken
Rysuko: but how long that takes is entirely up to us
Rysuko: we could destroy our race, our planet and relive these possibilities in other lifetimes
Rysuko: Nothing is such a certainty and we don't have that comfort
Rysuko: Hm
duskryder: profound brother
duskryder: didn't I say you were grace inspired!
Rysuko: Just my thoughts
Rysuko: There are countless other stars, planets and in all likelihood, races and species, intelligences in so many forms our imaginations put together could not fathom them all
Rysuko: So many struggles, changes, experiences
Shylibrachick: I am headed off to bed.. Nite
Rysuko: Okay Shy
duskryder: goodnight again with much colorful light and love
Rysuko: *hugs* You take care, glad you came back around
duskryder: definately
Shylibrachick: Thanks for your thoughts they are great. I feel your energy Rysuko
duskryder: by the bucketful this guy lol
Shylibrachick: Peace, love and Happiness, Nite
Rysuko: :)
Rysuko: Goodnight
Shylibrachick: Bye dusk
duskryder: sweet dreaming there shy
Shylibrachick has left.
duskryder: Ry
Rysuko: It is just countless and infact endless, even the greatest of changes, or people that help bring them about play only such a minute role, carried out in
Rysuko: the blink of God's eye
Rysuko: Eh?
duskryder: this right here is only of the main reason why you blind me
Rysuko: I blind you?
Rysuko: How so?
duskryder: yes
duskryder: amazing how you have sooooo much insight and potential and you get blindsided by praise
duskryder: wow
duskryder: lol
duskryder: I was saying how you have such depth and color within that its blinding
duskryder: kwim
Rysuko: Sometimes I think I have too much inside lol
Rysuko: Even the blink of God's eye isn't enough of a way to put it, for time for God has always stood still and all that is or ever was is but one
duskryder: yep
duskryder: I have no idea how far you'll go if you just let go and be
Rysuko: I don't know
Rysuko: I can just be, but it's always been hard for me not to be aware of so much more than that, it makes me wonder
Rysuko: People have said and I have believed that all that is and all that is not is all God
Rysuko: but I don't think anyone including myself really knows what that means
Rysuko: God created duality to experience himself and every thing we feel, he feels, everything we think, he thinks
Rysuko: He is all
Rysuko: and experiences with us, to along with us, experience himself through us, as we experience ourself through him
Rysuko: For we are one
Rysuko: and it is said that this is how God grows and everything is always getting bigger
Rysuko: But I think that is less than a pre-school way of understanding it
Rysuko: that is our way of understanding it
Rysuko: the only way we can understand it
Rysuko: and I know it exists, I know beyond me exists
Rysuko: and I'm always reaching
Rysuko: So close..
Rysuko: but always outside my grasp
Rysuko: I wouldn't be so arrogant to say that my own greatness is limited by what I am, but our greatness as a whole seems to be limited by what we are
Rysuko: and even then, we have so far to go simply to reach the peak of our own race
Rysuko: Fuck
Rysuko: So much
Rysuko: So much is happening all the time
Rysuko: but how can we reach it
Rysuko: We can be a part of it and become a greater part of it
Rysuko: but how can we touch it all at once
Rysuko: How can we touch God
Rysuko: Maybe to some it just doesn't matter
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Rysuko: but to me there is just so much inside that calls out to all that is
duskryder: maybe
Rysuko: but yet I can not touch it
duskryder: hello ben
Rysuko: I can not be it
Rysuko: I can't be aware of it even
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duskryder: sigh
Rysuko: It's simply too much
duskryder: ry
Rysuko: but if I were to get a grasp on even a portion of that, could I possibly obtain a brief glimpse through God's eyes
duskryder: calm down a bit
Rysuko: I just want to reconnect with where we all come from
Rysuko: to go there
Rysuko: Even if I am here to assist in world change, it has happened so many times it too can't be counted
Rysuko: and it will happen again, with or without me
Rysuko: Just want to be home
Rysuko: heh
duskryder: yea you get excited and frustrated at the same time then fall back to confused and reflective the next moment then back again
duskryder: LOL
duskryder: home? gotta graduation from schooling first
Rysuko: All that can be learned will be learned
Rysuko: but regardless I will of had the knowledge all along
Rysuko: it will always of had been available
Rysuko: and it always will be
Rysuko: to anyone and everyone
Rysuko: If when I was presented to that room to continue beyond I was denied for a reason because I still have something to work through, then that makes sense.
duskryder: ry
duskryder: Rysuko
Rysuko: But even though I know I'm not alone, I feel lonely
Rysuko: eh?
duskryder: where are you?
Rysuko: I can't answer that in the form of a name expressing a place
Rysuko: my only answer can be silence
duskryder: ok
duskryder: not finished
duskryder: I'm leaving you to it
Rysuko: I wish we could communicate heart to heart, to communicate through knowing, and feeling, rather than having to find words for the things
duskryder: not quite there yet ::smile
duskryder: I do too
duskryder: stop
duskryder: stop
duskryder has left.
abstracted2 has joined.
Rysuko: Hello
abstracted2: hi
abstracted2: how are you?
Rysuko: Good
abstracted2: thats good
Rysuko: and you?
abstracted2: I'm new the spiritual world but I'm good
Rysuko: Oh really, and what brings you to it then?
abstracted2: My brain
abstracted2: I feel like I just woke up
abstracted2: how about you?
Rysuko: In a way, I could say I feel the same
Rysuko: One thing I have to let you know though, your brain is a tool and tools don't bring themselves to places ;)
abstracted2: right on, you are right. Enlightenment has brought me here then
abstracted2: have you ever contacted anyone using your mind only before?
abstracted2: or been contacted?
Rysuko: Yea
abstracted2: I'm uber intrusted in this
abstracted2: I know I have the energy
Rysuko: You sure do
abstracted2: you can tell?
abstracted2: I think I need to find the red queen haha
Rysuko: I can tell it's waiting for you
Rysuko: What's a red queen?
abstracted2: from the matrix
abstracted2: I feel like I pulled the wool off and relate it to the matrix world
Rysuko: The matrix is a pretty good movie depicting all of our journeys here on Earth
abstracted2: so in your experiance were energy beings nice or mean?
Rysuko: Both
abstracted2: how can I protect myself I get a creepy feeling sometimes like I'm not safe
Rysuko: There are various ways, I'm still learning some of them myself
duskryder has joined.
abstracted2: right on
Rysuko: Welcome back Dusk
abstracted2: helllo]
Rysuko: Abstract here says he's new to the spiritual world
duskryder: we've got to stop meeting like this
abstracted2: why?
duskryder: ::mad
duskryder: what did you do?
Rysuko: What did I do?
duskryder: That wasn't me
abstracted2: *listens*
duskryder: not this time
Rysuko: All I know is you told me to stop twice then got disconnected or left
Rysuko: I'm not sure what happened
duskryder: what did you do where were you
abstracted2: thank your rysuko for anwering my questions very kind of you.
duskryder: that was some strong mojo Ry
Rysuko: You're very welcome, I look forward to answering more if I can
duskryder: sorry Hello Ab How are you
Rysuko: As I said, I can't place where I was or am in a word alone
abstracted2: I'm good, looking to fill my brain yet It seems to be overflowing at the moment
duskryder: well Ry can do that for ya.....I just help if needed
duskryder: he's got a lifetime knowledge
abstracted2: really?
abstracted2: does he have a mentor?
abstracted2: lol
Rysuko: I just help if needed as well Dusk lol
Rysuko: I consider Dusk one of them
duskryder: one of what? who? me? nahhhhhhh
abstracted2: alright. I'm into the equal being stuff
duskryder: ok ok ok it wsa partially my fault but I did NOT send that wave out
duskryder: mine are not that painful
Rysuko: If it was pain, I apologize, that could've been me
duskryder: I was trying to figure where you were ......just sent out a couple feelers had some excess energy lying around anyway
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| Wednesday, September 12th, 2007
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4:46 am - I Presume To Know Nothing; And From That Nothing, Comes Understanding
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All of reality is an image, an illusion put forth to take you away from consciousness. It's a game, a virtual reality, whose purpose is to take you away from awareness. It is meant to attract you, to entertain you, to pull you in, to play with the mind. It is designed perfectly to create an identity. To look through life this way is to be perfectly aware, to be truly alive. A good example of this is the yahoo featured article about 50 cent and Kanye West. Is the competition all that important? People want to know how powerful of an identity someone can have, these two are already very well known.
If one of them were to be seen as to somehow "win" over the other, their identity would then be that much more powerful in their eyes. It is a game of concepts. Who can be more, how much can a person be. It is the playing of consciousness with concepts. There is no harm in this alone, but it can be made to do harm when taken too far. These same games of consciousness exist and rise up in ourselves occassionally as reactions, as anger, as hurt. Hurt what, your image, your esteem, your dignity. What are these things? Games of consciousness.
You already have everything you've ever wanted. You don't have enough money? What is money? A symbol, a symbol of influence, the power of your existance. But tell me this, do you need to have the symbol to experience what the meaning of the symbol is? You are rich and wealthy beyond all measure. You do not have the love you seek? From you, all love originates. You do not need anyone else to exist as you already are. Discard the idea of seeking and embrace the love within. There's an entity within that will tell you upon looking for this love, that before you can have it, you need to come to certain circumstances. The love that you are is beyond this, who is to tell you what you allow for yourself from within, but you?
You seek to create a situation that will certainly show the world that "you mean something." You mean everything in the world, for if this meaning did not already exist, how could you become it? You keep being told that you cannot experience who and what you already are until you achieve something in particular, get to somewhere in particular. But this too is a part of the reality that is designed to pull you away from consciousness, this seems to be the ultimate moment. When you finally achieve what you wanted, there's a momentary joy, a portion of the consciousness you are. Rationed to you as a reward, made to think that it only exists in certain quantities, certain places and particular circumstances. Only then can you achieve what you desire.
What you desire is to fully awaken, to the greatness you are, to the love you are, to the richness you are. Don't take reality so seriously and you will learn to experience the miraculous joy of life; to learn to access the infinite love and joy within.
This I understood from meditation.
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| Monday, September 10th, 2007
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5:40 am - Why Do Spiritual Awakenings Happen So Late?
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There is a battle going on within, but not a typical battle, not a conventional war, like the war that is going on in the east. This isn't a fight between two ideas, or concepts, two opinions, two of your own, or yours and someone elses. This fight is between freedom of life, of greatness versus an elusive enemy, one that cannot be seen in the open. Soon we'll all be fighting this nonconventional war against an enemy we cannot see. It has no one name, it has no one method, it has no one location, there is nothing you can point to and say "this is it, destroy it." No, this fight is for our lives, for our souls, for the greatness we all harbour, the potential we have that is sought after by both sides. Light and dark, good and evil, freedom and tyranny.
The enemy is a highly clever one indeed, they are us, but not us, they are around us, but nowhere. You could fully accept and spread love to one aspect of the world, of life and it would be anything in the way of you doing that, of you accomplishing that, it would be any feelings, any thoughts to work against you, to create resistance. It would be another person, it would be the stormy weather or an accident, it will take any form it can get its slimey hands on. Not because the weather, an accident, another person is dark, or evil, but because it is the illusion that this identity is its own form, like a parasite claiming to be its host. The darkness is not in the person itself, not in the event, thought or emotion itself, but in the nameless evil that claims to be that identity. It is what questions "Could I be this great?" Of course you could! Infact, you are and always have been. What doubts the massive greatness that you are besides the lack of that greatness? What would you rather listen to, greatness or the lack of it? Just think, of the two sides, which one has more influence in you? In all that you do? That is your answer to who is winning the battle within.
I had someone screaming in my ear just about an hour or so ago, they told me what I'm most afraid to say and to accept. It's late but I went to take time to meditate and practice various things, astral techniques, shielding and just reflecting, listening to my guides if I can. I realized I was in a fearful mind and wasn't too open to hearing them tonight. So I began trying to listen and that's when my hearing sounded different, like it has before when I went to meditate. Only this time it was like that and some kind of a weird pressure, pushing against me, but it's hard to describe. Like the tide of the ocean coming up against my ears, and then fading back. Then it came again and faded back, pushing against my being in a way like it was trying to break through. This happened until there was a ringing in my ears and the feeling subsided like before, but didn't leave, was constant.
I heard this voice speaking constantly, some coming in clear, some coming in through a faded mumble. It said things like, you have been implanted here as a unit of great... you have to awaken to your purpose.... (staticey) then coming back in saying.. I forget very much of the statements said and words used, but I wish I remembered. This was like a transmission more than communication like with my guides, there was no back and forth, only a strong and firm message coming in. A message of my greatness, my power, my ability and the need to use it, the urgency to use it. Her voice became more clear and it was very loud like yelling, very powerful but always positive, telling me good things, more than I take myself to be capable of. THE WAY SHE SPOKE WAS LIKE THIS, GIVING STRENGTH AND POWER TO ALL THAT SHE SAID.
It's really hard to remember the specifics, but I wish I had a transcript of what she said.. She spoke as if it was a crime that I did not act with the utter greatness that I was. All I can remember now is that at first she spoke of me like I was implanted here, as a unit, like you'd put a battery in a device and expect it to work, or put anything anywhere to fulfill a purpose and it wasn't working. She said that like, "THERE IS NO TIME LEFT, NO TIME TO HESITATE, YOU MUST AWAKEN NOW, TO YOUR POTENTIAL, TO WHAT YOU ARE, TO ALL THAT YOU ARE, YOU MUST ACT, YOU ARE A GREAT LEADER, YOU ARE POWERFUL BEYOND IMAGINATION, YOU ARE GREATNESS," rather than ever telling me what I could achieve, or could be, or what I was not, she always spoke in a positive means, as to what I was, what I am.
"YOU HAVE THE POWER TO RECONCILE MANY NATIONS, TO AWAKEN OTHERS. WE NEED YOU, WE CAN NO LONGER AFFORD TO STAND IDLEY BY, YOU NEED YOU, WE NEED YOU, THE EARTH NEEDS YOU, AWAKEN!" and she would continue to say things like that, with a strong sense of urgency and power. She would continue to scream this into my mind, the first time she said "AWAKEN!!!!!!!!!!" I felt a presence and a tingling in my right forehead and somewhere on the right side of my head both at once. She would continue to not exactly scream, but it was so loud, so commanding, so demanding "AWAKEN!!!!!!!!!!! WAKE UP!!!!!!! WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!"
"WAKE!!!!!!"
"UP!!!!!!!!"
"WAAAAAKE!!!!!!!!"
"UUUUUUPPPPP!!!!!"
Again I felt the sensation in both areas.. She would with a commanding loud and powerful voice say this over and over, between saying it, she would rest and gain and muster all the strength she could and with no hesitation throw it all straight into me, like waves. I would twitch. I allowed this awakening to go on. She finally ran out of the high energy and powerful voice and energy she was throwing at me and she said with a reassuring voice "This won't be the last time we meet, I'll be back and you can count on that." In a way that would suggest she will not allow me to "sleep" any longer, that she would not leave me alone until I not only woke up but acted upon it. She had called me a great bringer of light, a great source of love. And in all honesty I do not think that well of myself, so the part of me saying it's just me, in order to deny that all that is true, would not be saying all that.
I talked to Des about what was going on, almost upset, afraid because of the intensity of it. I was shaking, shivering but not cold, I was flooding with energy and just.. shaking. I am grateful for the bliss that has come to me and the peace I have encountered. The main reason I've written that experience down is because Des told me to and my guides also told me to. They said that if I went straight to sleep, because I really, really want to, that the side of me attempting to drag down my awakening will gain power and the the awakening within me will gain power if I come to write it down, right now. So I did.. Though I'm really sleepy, it's late and I should've gotten a lot more sleep since I have to go somewhere. There was a lot more dialogue and sensations, more I could've written, but I don't remember them well and don't think they're that important in the long run.
This battle goes on, it's hard to tell sometimes what is the awakening, and what is the unseen elusive enemy.
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| Saturday, September 8th, 2007
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7:30 pm - Some of Eckhart Tolle's words
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| Monday, September 3rd, 2007
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10:24 pm
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I once watched a river flow, it was of muddy waters
It took me many years
One day I blinked and saw a beautiful river flow crystal clear
It must have been my imagination, no such beauty exists in reality
No water left on Earth is so clear, so beautiful
I sat a while longer in thought, when I saw the river again
It was beautifully crystal clear again, almost with a glow of innocence
This time I saw it for a few days and again, until one day
I blinked, and I saw a muddy river, polluted and disturbed, but flowing
as life always does, I thought that this couldn't be real
No river is so muddy, so polluted, so disturbed left on Earth
I once again saw the river so beautiful it couldn't be believed
For long enough to drink from it and feel just a drop of that beauty within
Yet everyone stared into this same river and told me it was muddy
Spoke as if it was muddy, polluted, disturbed, as if it needed fixed, or purified
And so many spent their lives trying, died trying, became a fool trying
But who was right? Was my vision an illusion? Was their vision an illusion? Many say only their way is right. Why can't there be several ways of getting to the same place? Who and what do I believe, if what is real to me, is fake to another. If what is real to another is fake to me. Why can't both be real? Are both real? Why move away from one resistance just to accept something new and different and resist what was old, but still here? There is no need.
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